Random shitty stuff I say on a random day

I was browsing through some other blogs earlier when I realized that I haven't blogged for a long time. My last was two months ago and that was me ranting over some guy who probably didn't rant over me. So as I was thinking, it dawned on me how much I've changed in two months. Literally. 

Last August I was so self-centered thinking only about how much others were charmed by me and that I would always have to look good to be pleasing to their eyes. I don't mean that I'm not dressing up to look good now, I still do, but I dress up now without aiming to please others. I see to it that I look good just because I want to. 

Last August I was always looking forward to my kids (my students) winning writing competitions but when most of them won in September, I just smiled and thank God for the blessings. I smiled and became grateful for like everyday of my waking moment. I walked the halls of the school, my feet still on the ground despite of knowing that my kids' stories of victory resound in every wall. I should've been bragging, but I wasn't. I could've, but I didn't. 

Last August I was keeping myself busy so that when my friends ask me out I could say no. I thought I could keep it that way. But I couldn't. Eventually, I started to contact my friends and made arrangements. I saw a lot of old friends in two months. Now, I'm continuing to see them every once in a while.

Last August my goal was to have and keep someone dear to me. That better half. Looking back at those moments makes me laugh because I realized that my world then revolves around that. I lie low. Now, I focus on my family, Gazette kids, my work, myself, and my interests. I love how I don't think about romance at the moment. It really is a big change.

 Soo there. I updated my blog with the new me. I know there aren't much people reading my blog but I still want to clear my past image because I'm really happy that I am who I am today. Will try to not be lazy and update my blog weekly. Teehee. :)